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July 27th, 2008
02:55 am - "You've got it all together, girl."
After greeting each other, Lisa, a medium, politely asks me to sit on her red couch on the porch...
Lisa: Okay, so basically what I do is hold something that has meaning to you, and tell you what I see and feel.
Sarah: Sounds good!
I hand over my ring. She holds it in her hand for a few moments then places it around her pinky finger. She closes her eyes a few moments, and then looks at me and smiles.
L: You're in college.
S: Mm hmm
L: Can I ask what you are going to school for?
S: (hesitate for a moment) ...teaching.
She lets out a sigh of relief and smiles even greater.
L: That's perfect for you. You have such a healing/nurturing aura about you. Perfect. Is there one grade in particular that interests you?
Before I can even say ANYTHING...
L: Fourth.
S: (shocked) Holy crap!
L: Fourth is where you NEED to be.
S: Wait...how did y-...wow.
L: You are going to be very successful. Really, Sarah. I wish you could see what I'm seeing. But the thing is, I'm getting the sense that you need to be alone after college. That first year while you are teaching will be a whole new learning experience for you, and you need to be alone to do that.
I gave her an "I don't THINK so" face.
L: Are in a relationship?
S: Yes.
L: Your parents know about your relationship?
S: Yes.
L: And your partner's parents know about you?
S: ...mm hmm.
L: Do you think she's the one?
S: (eyes get big) ...Absolutely.
L: I sense some jealousy in your relationship
S: Really?
L: Yes. Did you recently come back from a vacation?
S: (thinks about the cruise) Yes
L: When you came back, did you feel like things were different?
S: (thinks a minute) Kind of. We're out of the "honeymoon" phase going through the whole "I'm married" phase
L: Okay. Well, down the road, one of you is going to be jealous of the other. It will be about another girl. And SHE'S the one that will be jealous. Not you. But you need to constantly reassure her that she's the only one for you.
S: (smiles) I can do that.
L: (pauses) You two are REALLY cute together, by the way.
L: Who's the business one?
S: Huh?
L: I'm seeing something about a business.
S: Well, I'm more of the teacher. She's the business one I guess you could say.
L: Tell her that she needs to start up the business.
S: (jaw drops)
L: She's the one with the invention, right?
S: (still stunned) ...yeah.
L: She needs to follow through with it. It's a great idea and will be a HUGE hit. HUGE!
S: (covers face with hands) Are you serious???
L: I'm so serious. (pauses for a moment) And you, Sarah. You need to help her. You need to be in it with her for it to be successful.
S: Holy Cr-...Wow (shakes head)
L: Your mom. Make sure you keep an eye on her lungs.
S: Makes sense.
L: And Dad. There's some kind of loss of communication going on between you and him.
S: We don't talk all the time if that's what you mean. I was raised to be indepented, so I don't call him for every little thing.
L: Right. You're not the one having trouble. He is. He's so proud of you, but he's feeling like, "My little girl has grown up so fast" kind of thing.
S: (smiles) I know. He tries to do a good job of hiding it.
L: Just next time you're with him, he needs to hear that you always be his little girl. He knows it. He just needs to hear it.
L: There's a cat with you.
S: (laughs) What?! OKay...
L: Yeah, I don't know, either. Just take that with you.
L: We're you abused as a little girl?
S: No.
L: You're sister?
S: No.
L: Mom? I'm just getting that a female in your family was badly abused as a young girl...
S: My mom was.
L: Okay. Because that happened...she can never be the person she wants to be. It will always be with her. She will never be able to love the way she wants to.
S: (nods head) That's definitely her.
L: She's taking medication. It's not the right kind.
L: Do you have any questions for me?
S: Well...this semester that's coming up...I'm kind of worried about how we'll be financially. I'll be interning and working very little. And kind of the same with her.
L:(smiles) You are going to be fine. Anything else?
S: Teaching and being gay. They are both things that define me. Yet, I'll be held to a higher standard than others as a teacher. Basically, I don't want the fact that I have a girlfriend to hinder my career, and vice-versa.
L: Then don't let it. If someone finds out, then whatever! You're human! And you'll also have that edge. There are going to be kids that don't fit the norm. And you know what that's like. And for that, you are a step above the rest. You are going to do great, great things. You're on the right track. You've set yourself up for success. You've got it all together.
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There was a lot more. And although some things could be described as "vague," there were others that nobody else knew. She could have picked any grade level, but she picked the one that I have wanted to teach since I interned a year ago. And Diana came up with this really cool idea for starting a business less than a month ago. And I never hinted that I was gay. Diana wasn't around when I went in the house or the room. It was just...really cool.
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June 4th, 2008
02:22 am - Audit
It's 2:23 in the morning...and I'm at work. Why? You ask. Because I am getting trained on how to work the late night shift (11pm-7am) in case someone calls out and my boss needs someone to fill it. The work load during this shift is not difficult at all. Obviously! Everyone is sleeping. Still, it's so hard to stay awake for the whole shift. I've only been here for a little over two hours, and I'm ready to crash. Those of you who know me KNOW that I'm not a night person. At all. If I could be in bed by 9 everynight, I'd be a happy camper. Instead, everyone at my house, HELL, EVERYONE IN THE WORLD, is sleeping. And I'm at work. *laughs*
Oh yeah! I quit Gators. Now I work at Mike Ditka Resorts Runaway Beach Club. Ditka doesn't own it. We just use his name. (R...WC!!!). It's really nice - look it up if you get a chance. I started when we got back from the cruise. Oh yeah again! I went on a cruise too! So fun! Anyway, so I'm on my third week of working here. I like it. The people are super nice, and word-around-town is that I've been doing a great job at picking everything up fairly quickly. *brushes dirt off shoulder* What's the best part about working here instead of Gators? Good Quesh! (Chop "lemme get that"...lol). Well, I have to say that I absolutely love the fact that I don't work for tips anymore and that I know exactly how much money I'll be pulling in every week. This system works much better with my new budgeting scheme that I've created.
*sighs* I miss my girlfriend. She was so good to me today. I was being a total girl with several emotional outbreaks. When she got home from work today, I just cried and cried and cried. For no reason, of course. It only makes sense, right? About five minutes later, I was fine. Gotta love being a girl!
So Diana and Carly have me doing this hip hop dance cardio thing tomorrow. I watched the same class a couple days ago, and it looked like a lot of fun. I'm really excited about it.
I apologize for being so random, but I guess random journal entries are the norm for me. I just really have nothing to do right now. All I want to do is be in bed with my girlfriend.
Blah.
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February 29th, 2008
03:12 pm - Just checkin' on you...
I'm watching last night's episode of LOST.
And she is laying in the bed. In my spot. She's the most beautiful girl in the world.
I love you.
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February 14th, 2008
11:14 am - "She's just one of those teachers..."
This week started out very...crappy.
Monday, I had to work. Mondays are all-you-can-eat wing nights. I LOOOOOOATHE wing nights. I get 8 tables all night, crammed with teenagers who think they are God, and I walk out with hardly any money. Usually, I make the best out of working on Mondays, but I REALLY wasn't feeling it this week. Made 40 bucks though. (Whooop-dee-doo!)
Tuesday. Tuesdays are days that I look forward to. I have a 7:30am class, which means I have to be up at 6, but the teacher always makes it interesting. And with a cup-of-joe in my hands, I thoroughly enjoy each class. This past Tuesday, however, my alarm clock did not go off. I woke up at 8:04. While my other classmates are reading children's books and having interesting lectures, I'm freaking out because I'm not in class. Normally, missing class wouldn't be too detrimental, but today, I had something due. I was supposed to read a book aloud to my group (Surprisingly, it's a big project. Who knew you had to go to school to learn the proper way to read a book to kids LOL). Instead, I was tearing up in the bathroom as I debated whether or not I should still go. I kept saying, "This is a teacher that I want on my side. The kind of teacher that I do not want to disappoint. But somehow, that keeps happening" (I forgot to bring something of importance to the last class). Finally, I decided that I didn't want to write an email making up some random excuse, and that I would rather talk to her in person. So I did. And I cried a little when I told her what happened. And everything was fine. She was just relieved that I didn't get in an accident or something. And she even commended me on coming to class. But I was still in a weird mood the rest of the day (up until Carly's birthday, of course!).
On Wednesday, it got a little bit better. I got my stitches out on my back (after the dermatologist removed a mole on my back). And then I went to my Social Studies class. I presented a little project that was different from everyone else, and my class and professor seemed to enjoy it.
Today, Thursday, was a day that I had been looking forward to all week. I have the same teacher that I have on Tuesdays, but a different class, and we had to present a learning center to our class. This was my chance to show my teacher than I am more than just a student who forgets a paper or sleeps in for half of the class (both hardly, if ever, happen). I was proud of my creation. It was vocabulary-centered, and I couldn't wait to show it off. When the time came to explain it, my teacher's eyes lit up. She kept pointing out all the things she loved about it, and kept nodding her head and saying, "This is great. This is so original. I've never seen a layout like this. Wow." She suggested that I lamanate pieces, so it lasts a little bit longer. She even mentioned that I could submit this to an education magazine (I forget what it's called), and have it published. I'm really not trying to brag, but I worked so hard on this assignment. And I just stood there and relished in the compliments she was giving me. From day one, I have felt like this teacher was holding me to a higher standard than everyone else. She's just one of those teachers. And to hear, "I have never seen a layout like this," from a teacher who has been teaching both elementary and college students for YEARS...is amazing. *smiles*
Tonight, we're going out to dinner with Diana's fam for Johnny's birthday. I'm slightly disappointed because I was looking forward to having dinner with only my Valentine. Still, I completely understand because it's her brother's birthday, and that is much more important than V-day. But we'll make pink "cuckcakes" later with pink icing and special sprinkles. *winks* I'm looking forward to that.
Tomorrow, we're going down to Jupiter. Taxes, FAFSA, and fam. Fun fun!
Alrighty, that's enough of an update for me! Happy Valentine's Day, everyone!
Especially YOU, little bug. *kiss*
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11:14 am
This week started out very...crappy.
Monday, I had to work. Mondays are all-you-can-eat wing nights. I LOOOOOOATHE wing nights. I get 8 tables all night, crammed with teenagers who think they are God, and I walk out with hardly any money. Usually, I make the best out of working on Mondays, but I REALLY wasn't feeling it this week. Made 40 bucks though. (Whooop-dee-doo!)
Tuesday. Tuesdays are days that I look forward to. I have a 7:30am class, which means I have to be up at 6, but the teacher always makes it interesting. And with a cup-of-joe in my hands, I thoroughly enjoy each class. This past Tuesday, however, my alarm clock did not go off. I woke up at 8:04. While my other classmates are reading children's books and having interesting lectures, I'm freaking out because I'm not in class. Normally, missing class wouldn't be too detrimental, but today, I had something due. I was supposed to read a book aloud to my group (Surprisingly, it's a big project. Who knew you had to go to school to learn the proper way to read a book to kids LOL). Instead, I was tearing up in the bathroom as I debated whether or not I should still go. I kept saying, "This is a teacher that I want on my side. The kind of teacher that I do not want to disappoint. But somehow, that keeps happening" (I forgot to bring something of importance to the last class). Finally, I decided that I didn't want to write an email making up some random excuse, and that I would rather talk to her in person. So I did. And I cried a little when I told her what happened. And everything was fine. She was just relieved that I didn't get in an accident or something. And she even commended me on coming to class. But I was still in a weird mood the rest of the day (up until Carly's birthday, of course!).
On Wednesday, it got a little bit better. I got my stitches out on my back (after the dermatologist removed a mole on my back). And then I went to my Social Studies class. I presented a little project that was different from everyone else, and my class and professor seemed to enjoy it.
Today, Thursday, was a day that I had been looking forward to all week. I have the same teacher that I have on Tuesdays, but a different class, and we had to present a learning center to our class. This was my chance to show my teacher than I am more than just a student who forgets a paper or sleeps in for half of the class (both hardly, if ever, happen). I was proud of my creation. It was vocabulary-centered, and I couldn't wait to show it off. When the time came to explain it, my teacher's eyes lit up. She kept pointing out all the things she loved about it, and kept nodding her head and saying, "This is great. This is so original. I've never seen a layout like this. Wow." She suggested that I lamanate pieces, so it lasts a little bit longer. She even mentioned that I could submit this to an education magazine (I forget what it's called), and have it published. I'm really not trying to brag, but I worked so hard on this assignment. And I just stood there and relished in the compliments she was giving me. From day one, I have felt like this teacher was holding me to a higher standard than everyone else. She's just one of those teachers. And to hear, "I have never seen a layout like this," from a teacher who has been teaching both elementary and college students for YEARS...is amazing. *smiles*
Tonight, we're going out to dinner with Diana's fam for Johnny's birthday. I'm slightly disappointed because I was looking forward to having dinner with only my Valentine. Still, I completely understand because it's her brother's birthday, and that is much more important than V-day. But we'll make pink "cuckcakes" later with pink icing and special sprinkles. *winks* I'm looking forward to that.
Tomorrow, we're going down to Jupiter. Taxes, FAFSA, and fam. Fun fun!
Alrighty, that's enough of an update for me.
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January 26th, 2008
08:32 pm - "Blaze with the fire that is never extinguished"
Five people showed up today.
Five.
And I promised myself that if five people came, I would be okay.
And I am.
I am happy that those five people were impressed.
They even said it was the "best one of the day."
But all of the other presentations ranged from 15-50 people.
But I told myself I would be okay.
I got all of the praise that I could ever ask for when I taught the lesson to my 21 fourth-graders.
The kids loved it, and afterwards, they begged and pleaded for me to come back and teach another lesson. That's a work in progress. :-)
My teacher was amazed beyond belief, and she offered me some incredible closing remarks, saying that I was "the most dedicated, hard-working, and natural intern" she ever had in her 14 years of teaching.
My coordinator said that she "saw that fire in my eyes" from the moment she met me at orientation, and she continued to be impressed.
I'm not writing these comments to brag or ride on an ego-trip.
I'm writing these things because FIVE people showed up today.
But I promised myself that I would be okay with five.
And I will be after this entry is written.
But right now, in this very moment, I feel rejected and diasppointed with the turnout.
Just for this minute.
*take a deep breath*
But I presented my lesson to those five people as if I was teaching a whole class.
I'm just proud of myself for giving them my best.
And I'm glad that Diana got to see what I am made of.
*smiles*
On that note, I cannot wait to teach.
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December 16th, 2007
10:01 pm
My girlfriend passed math!!!!
YAY!!!!!
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November 8th, 2007
09:33 pm - If you wanna be a JBI SPOTTER, you gotta get with my friends...
Hey YOU! Yeah, I’m talking to YOU!, Want to be a PRO at spotting JBIs (Junior Block Interns)?! I knew you would! Here is some advice to start you on your way to becoming a professional JBI spotter: - An excellent place to start your journey is at the Einsteins cart in the Education Complex. Yes, there is always a mixture of college students carrying bags full of cute little books with cute little activities for cute little kids. But look for that college student who has raccoon eyes from what looks like an incredible lack of sleep. This student is most-likely to be extremely pale. If they look like they haven’t been outside in weeks, you’ve got a JBI in your line of vision! Another clue is if the student is desperately counting down the seconds until they can suck down that large cup of “Darn Good Coffee.” To this student, the term “caffeine addict” is merely an understatement.
- Another place to find these JBIs is in the Curriculum Materials Center, which is also located in the Education Complex. This is a resource library for Education Majors to find those “cute little books with cute little activities for cute little kids.” Again, it will be difficult to point out the JBIs in a sea of smiling faces who are so proud of the cute little lessons that they have just created. A closer observation, however, will reveal the student who has been sitting at a computer for over four hours in order to "get a start" on the enormous amount of lackluster work that the College of Education has conveniently compiled for them. If you are still not sure as to whether you have discovered a JBI sighting, sit next the student and pretend to call a buddy on your cell. A simple mention of the word “beach” because you have “nothing to do this weekend” will have that JBI staring you down in envy in a matter of milliseconds.
- Your next observation point should be the stairways of the Teaching Academy. Most JBIs will come pounding down the stairs with heavy, physically exhausted steps often talking to a colleague in JBI Lingo. For purposes of convenience, I’ve gone ahead and bolded the text that will reveal key terms used in JBI Lingo. Keep your eyes and ears open for statements and questions similar to these:
“Which FEAPs have you completed and submitted to LiveText so
far?"
“I am so stressed out! My supervising teacher will not let me do anything! I am going to be completely honest in my Bi-Weeklies!” “I have all of these Diagnostic Protocols to administer and my MAE 4326 teacher has hardly given us any instruction!” “When is your Case Study due for RED 4519? What are you doing for your Intervention Lessons?” “My UCF Coordinator never answers any of my questions for my Application of Understanding!” “I don’t know what to include in my Lesson Adaptation assignment! What did you put for the SLD, ESOL, or ESE portions? ” “My Behavioral Intervention Plan is not coming along very well because my student with ADHD does not have an IEP or a 504!” There you have it! You are now ready to go out there and try to spot some JBIs for yourself! Try it a few times alone to get the hang of it, then bring along a few friends. They will be so impressed with your new ability. You may even want to consider a profession out of it!
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October 11th, 2007
11:31 am - Okay...
I'm mad.
I'm emotional.
I need to vent.
PROBLEM # 1: GATORS DOCKSIDE
I am so sick of this place. Being there makes me so angry.
The customers walk all over you.
"Hi there! How are you? How many people are in your party? Four? Okay, would you like a booth, table, or a high top? A booth? Okay, you can follow me....Here, you are. Oh, I'm sorry. The light is not bright enough for you at this table? Oh you want the one against the window over there. No, no, that's not a problem. That server just got double-sat, so it's going to be a minute before she can get to you. Yes, sir, you're absolutely right. The customer IS always right. I'll go ahead and take your drink order even though I have a line of people waiting to be sat at the host stand. It's nice to know that even though I am going through all of this trouble to make YOU happy, I'm at least getting a decent paycheck later on in the week. Oh wait..."
The managers are all inconsistent.
"Hmmm, Sarah is the only one working a double today. And she DID work a double shift yesterday too. It's eight o'clock, and we are completely dead. And we have been extremely slow all night. There are 6 other servers on. Should I cut her? No, no. Not just yet. She won't complain. I'll just keep her around for another hour or so. (An hour later) Okay, I'm going to cut Sarah now, since she is the til today. But I am also going to cut Katie and Robby. Technically, I SHOOOULD give Sarah the easy side work, but I REALLY don't want to hear Katie complain. So I'll give Katie the side work that takes ten minutes and Sarah the side work that takes thirty minutes. Again, she won't complain. That saves me from having to deal with Katie.
The kitchen staff are so annoying.
Dooo duh doooo. It's eight at night. I just got two food orders that are supposed to go out in fifteen minutes. So, I'm just going to twiddle my thumbs, pick the cotton out of my ass because I haven't taken a shower in weeks, and maybe even play that SUPER COOL SUPERMAN song 3457437657983467586283 times. I'm so freakin' cool! I know the dance and everything! Oh, man. Here comes Sarah. I was supposed to have her order ready five minutes ago, and I haven't even started. I'll just ignore her when she comes back bitching.
SOLUTION TO PROBLEM:
Quit Gators. Find a new job that is not in the food industry.
More to come....
Current Location: In my messy room that I never have time to clean!
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May 6th, 2007
09:37 pm - The Rural Juror (say that fast five times...LOL)
I was looking at some love compatibility websites, just to see how realistic my relationship is with Diana, and I came across this description. Needless to say, I was very disappointed in the website's view on how compatible a TAURUS (me) and a CAPRICORN (Diana) are together.
TAURUS and CARPRICORN:
"An affinity of earth signs makes the love compatibility between these two a match. Together they create a long-lasting, ideal partnership for both love, work, and life. The patience of the Capricorn matches well with the caring nature of the Taurean. The strategicness of the Taurean goes well with the drive of the Capricorn. It seems that each facet of their personalities has a perfect match in their partner."
So...as you can see...it's terribly depressing to accept...but we are simply not made for each other.
*giggles*
In other news, school is out! At least for a couple months. I managed to scrap together three A's and an A-. Not too shabby considering this semester kicked my butt.
In the meantime, I shall enjoy the peaceful weeks ahead by working everyday ('Cept for Sunday. Amen. LOL) at Hot Dog Heaven and Gators (starting tomorrow!). Italy is coming up shortly too. I am really looking forward to that trip. It will be nice to get out of Orlando (well, get out of Florida, really....HELL, get out of the U.S. of A.) for almost two weeks. Of course, Diana is coming too. New country. New places. Hotels perhaps...(*winks*). Yum! Can't wait!
Diana and I have also been working out and eating better for eight days. I feel so good. My belly is flat, and my girlie muscles are peeking out again. And she looks stunning. I love it when she feels good about herself because then she's confident. And when she's confident, she's sooooo sexy. *smiles*
*rubs eyes*
I'm sleepy. I need to clean up around here, and then head over to my baby-love's house to take a "sweet nap."
I love you, Snooks. :-)
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April 30th, 2007
11:53 am
Just got out of my "exam."
Alas....
I can breathe for a minute.
*smiles*
I think I need a nap.
Then I'm off to be productive...well, somewhat.
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April 16th, 2007
09:24 pm
Randomness:
Diana and I went to the Lowry Park Zoo in Tampa yesterday. I have always glanced at the animals very quickly and stopped only when they were actually doing something. But you miss everything that way. Diana has taught me to take the time to observe them. The experience is worthwhile that way. We had a lot of fun, and we've decided to explore different zoos around Florida and find the best one. Adventure?! What?!
I love when Diana and I have "that kiss." That kiss that takes my breath away...literally. That kiss that makes me wish so badly that I didn't have to leave. We seem to have a lot of those. Love.
Class was kind of boring today, so nothing really to talk about there.
I took a three hour nap today. I haven't had one of those in FOREVER. It took some serious personal convincing to make me realize that I could afford a nap like that.
I had a nice conversation with Julie today. :-)
Then I went to Designer Greens to get some food. It's almost identical to Greens and Grille over by the Millenia Mall. It was yummy, but now I am hungry again.
My dad put three hundred dollars in my account to fix my car which cost me two-fifty. So that's an extra fifty bucks to help pay off my credit card. He is so good to me. He mentioned that Josh has a date to the prom. Oh yeah? LOL. He's a good kid. Talking to my dad made me really miss Jupiter. I think I would rather spend my birthday down there than up here, assuming that Diana doesn't have anything planned yet. *hint, hint*
School is almost over for the semester. It's nice to feel it winding down instead of cramming at the end like other semesters. I have been so busy the last couple months that the load of work I am experiencing now is so easy.
I love that new show "Thank God You're here!" So funny. Can't wait for Lost on Wednesday.
Dinner with the roommies on Friday (or Saturday). I like that I naturally refer to them as my roommies, even though we all don't live together anymore. We are going to Houlihan's to celebrate "our anniversary." Sounds like FUN!
I like that Jenna is an Elementary Education major too. It's nice to compare experiences and have someone in the same boat as me. :-)
I love Diana Eastman! No. I'm being completely serious.
That Virginia Tech incident is really disturbing. I don't even want to go into that. Just...scary.
I need to get ready to head over to Diana's. She's called me a half hour ago to say that she was cut. I love when she takes time out of her busy day to give me a call. It's tough to go the whole day without hearing her voice, so little doses like that are so worth it.
I have "forever" friends.
I have an amazing family.
I have THE PERFECT girlfriend.
And I am on the right track to the profession I've always dreamed of.
I couldn't be happier.
Well...a clean room might make me happier. LOL
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April 7th, 2007
06:07 pm
I just finished signing up for classes. Hopefully I did everything correctly! I cannot tell you how excited I am. It is so nice to have signed up for all of the remaining courses I need to take (except for the second internship). Assuming that I pass every class, I will be walking down the aisle after I finish my second internship in DECEMBER 2008!!! It's like seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Although I have a lot work ahead of me, I can see where IT ends, or rather, where IT begins. And that is so exciting for me.
I feel like I have worked SOOO hard this semester, more than any other semester up to this point. But it is not a surprise that my current classes will leave me feeling the most accomplished.
Ratemyprofessor.com states that I have some cool teachers ahead of me as well. *smiles*
In other news, but still on the subject of my classes, I have to present a summary of an intricate article on Feminist Pedagogy. It was a brutal read, but after further exploring the concept using the internet, I find it fascinating. Ideas are swimming in my head. So far, the other students in my class who have already presented their article left me with no new knowledge unless my professor chimed in to make the content more clear. So, naturally, I have to do something out-of-the-ordinary. *winks* Like I said, ideas are forming. I have been explaining what I want to do with a few people in order to get some input.
*call from my Mommy*
She just gave me some excellent ideas!
But I am going to watch Lost now before I head over to Diana's. She's working til 2am. Wooo...
Later!
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April 2nd, 2007
10:00 pm - School bid-ness
Hi there! I was at the meeting last Friday for Internship I.
Uh huh...
Well, I went online to check my application status and nothing was listed.
Okay. What's your name?
McCarthy. Sorry, Sarah McCarthy.
That's M-C-C....?
Yeah, M-C-C-A-R-T-H-Y.
There's no space or anything in your last name?
Mmmmm....nope!
Well, your name is not even on here.
What?! What does that mean?!
It means your not even in the system. Did you fill out an application?
...yes.
Did you turn it in on-time?
...a few days early.
Where?
(Makes a 180 and points) Right over there.
Did you fill out the application online?
I downloaded the application online. I don't remember if I filled anything out. I just followed the instructions.
Hmmm.
Can you show me what you mean by filling it out online? It was a month ago, so...
(Turns computer toward me) It looked like this. You were supposed to fill it out. You should not have been able to turn anything in without filling this out first.
Yeah, that looks familiar. And then it's suppose printed out what I filled in, right?
Yeah.
But what about my application?
I'm not really sure where your application means. It could have gone up to the Board for review...
Uh huh. And are you all able to check on that?
I am going to try, but the lady I need to talk to is in a meeting right now
Uhhhh....huh. Well, I have to get to work. But I am going to stop by tomorrow to check up on this if that's okay.
Alright. That would be a good time to come back.
Thanks. Bye!
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So...THAT'S ANNOYING!
I'm not going to stress about this until I find out they REALLY have no idea where my application is. (sdfhjdskhsgahgvdewufio!!!????!?!?!?!)
In other news....
Diana worked a double today. She went in at ten, and twelve hours later, she's still there. And she just called to tell me that she won't get out before midnight. Gay. She works sooo hard. Mind you, she makes great money, but she works sooooo hard! She's going to be dead when she gets into bed tonight. Somehow, she got the day off for tomorrow. I think I am going to head over there after I write this. I'll probably fall asleep until she calls me to come get her (since her car is not ready yet).
I don't mind taking being her taxi driver. I really don't. It will just be very nice when she gets her car back.
She just text-messaged me saying that she is cut.Cool beans! I guess I better head over there. I need to get some "that-time-of-the-month" supplies, if you catch my drift. I don't know why I just wrote that. LOL! I must be really tired myself.
Until next time...
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March 25th, 2007
08:55 pm
Quick journal!
I just finished b.s.ing a paper for my class tomorrow.
Now I am putting together a cheat-sheet for my exam tomorrow.
*looks over to Diana sleeping 2 feet away and"checks-up" on her for the 63rd time*
Can I please say that I have the most beautiful girlfriend in the whole world?!
I mean, c'mon! Who else has an angel that sleeps in your bed everynight?!
Okay, back to work...
Blah.
*64*
;-)
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March 19th, 2007
07:44 pm - Mommies are so wonderful!
Figured out exactly what it was that was eating at me.
:-)
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March 18th, 2007
11:17 am - "Initiative - at one's own discretion; independently of outside influence or control." Thanks, Ma'
It's Sunday. I'm at her house. Diana works a double today. I have no obligations like working at the Heaven or completing volunteer hours today. I do, however, have a very messy room to clean and some homework to B.S. before waking up from my Spring Break and getting back into the groove of university life. This semester proves to be chaotic week after week. Still, I manage (somehow) to incorporate essays, endless reading, individual projects, group projects, teaching/observing at Arbor Ridge School, working 10-15 hours, 3-6 volunteer hours, and more in a given week - all while maintaining a successful relationship. SHEESH! LOL
No, I am exaggerating a little (but just a little). That is why I am taking a few hours to veg on the computer before I become a maid in my own apartment.
Changing the subject, I really enjoy being in Diana's house. It feels like my own home now. I love and criticize her mom like she is my own. Johnny is a wonderful "brother-in-law." Her father is AMAZING. I love seeing Missy get so excited when I walk in the door, and she ignores me like she does for the rest of the family when I call her to come back inside. That's love right there. Her friends are my friends, and I would do anything for them. And Diana, well she's the icing on top of the cake. She's alright, I guess. *winks*
It's just all so perfect. Almost to the point where being at my apartment feels foreign to me. I am most-certainly looking forward to moving over here. That's for sure. It's going to be weird when I am not Julie's roommate anymore. She is an amazing friend. She has been there for me more than any other friend. I love her, and she will always hold a very special place in my heart. I hate that it feels like we have grown apart a little. I suppose that's what happens when two friends develop intense relationships with their signifs and two completely different daily schedules. But I will always be there for her after we move out of PC Projects. Just a phone call away instead of a room away. :-)
Our one year anniversary is this Wednesday! Although I have school until one-ish, the plan is to go to Disney for the day and then back to Hollywood Nights (the timeshare home that Diana's dad owns and manages), assuming that no one books it for the night. I cannot believe that it has been one year, but at the same time, I feel like I have known her all my life. Best friends in five minutes, soulmates in ten. We never fight. Not one argument. Granted, there are times when we might push it a little bit where it could lead to an argument. But having patience and talking about it is simply in our nature. Not a day goes by where I forget how wonderful she is and how lucky I am. And spending time with her never gets old. A year ago, I was bragging about how perfect she is. Today, I am still in awe of how perfect she is. And a year from now, I will be saying the same thing. True love is so amazing.
Italy is coming up very soon. I took care of applying for a passport, and it should be here within the next 6 weeks or so. It's taking a lot longer for the passports to be distributed because everyone needs one now, even to take a weekend trip to Canada or the Bahamas. I am trying my hardest to save little bit here and there. It's hard when I am hardly working because school is requiring a lot from me, but I manage to scrap some and stick in in my savings account. And Diana has been helping me out a lot financially. The trip over seas is one of the main reasons I am pushing myself so hard in school this semester. It's almost like my reward in a way. Hahaha.
Well, I suppose I should start my day now. I will feel much better and more accomplished when I get everything finished. I am going to make a list right now. Lists have become a necessity lately. Gotta be organized.
I always say this, but I need to write in this thing more often. It is nice to got back and read what was going on in my life at any certain point. And to see how much I have grown and matured.
Okie dokes,
Goose out.
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February 20th, 2007
01:38 pm - Lights, Curtain, ACTION!
Backstage in the dressing room,
She stands in front of the mirror,
Suits up the appropriate costume
And applies the necessary make-up.
Nerves, worries, and apprehension have been hiking up her throat
Since she opened her eyes this morning. But she uses every muscle To force these anxieties away. At least from her face. “They must not see the fear in my eyes. I may be afraid, but I refuse to let it show.
This is a chance of a lifetime."
She is amid the cast for today’s show, Playing the leading role, in fact. This will be her first time - Front and center on the stage. All lights and eyes will be fixated on her. It’s all or nothing. The pressure’s on. “Will the audience appreciate my acting? Or will they ‘boo’ me off-stage?”
She peaks from behind the curtain To see that the audience is ready for the show to begin. (“Miss McCarthy, you’re on in thirty seconds!”) This is it. There is no more time for preparation. There is no more time for pondering. There is no more time for “what if..? Will they like me? I can’t do this!” She takes a deep breath, Slowly exhales, And makes her way on-stage. It’s show time. Lights, curtain, ACTION!
"Good morning, boys and girls! My name is Miss McCarthy. Today, we are going to learn how a community
works…”
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February 14th, 2007
09:50 am - While rummaging through my things...
...I found this:
THE WOMAN OF I THINK WOULD BE PERFECT FOR ME (First of all, who titles a list?! LOL)
She would:
Be caring, honest, and able to talk "rough spots" out with me
Be cute, sweet, and into me
Get along wonderfully with my family and friends
Say that she needs me
ACT like she needs me
Like to go out and do various things, trips, adventures, etc.
Dress girly, act girly
Be my height
Have dark hair with amazing eyes
Let me have my own space from time-to-time, but still WANT to spend every minute with me
Let me spoil her without expecting it
Be thoughtful, considerate, and kind
Be beautiful in my eyes
(Swear to God, this is verbatim) Be a lady in the street, but a freak in the bed (*laughs*)
Be with me, and only me
Not make me jealous or doubt that she loved me
Be stubborn at times and difficult, but at least LISTEN and hear me out
Be ambitious
Make me so happy and proud
Look up to me, as I would look up to her
Not consider me inferior, but equal
Support me, as I would support her (I'm guessing I meant supporting my decisions, always having my back kindathing)
Have an accepting family who will love me
Love me to NO end, as I would feel the same way about her
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So I wrote this after MJ and I broke up. With her, I was always trying to make her happy without ever feeling like I had succeeded. There was so much drama with her family, that I, nor she, EVER felt accepted. She was pretty, but her sadness and apathy made me feel like I was drowning.
And there had been other girls that I liked, but they had they negative features, as we all do. But after I broke up with my ex, I was DONE with looking for the miserable girls. The girls that I felt that I needed to FIX. Because it was taking SO much out of me that I wasn't even...living. I lost myself each time I fell for a girl. But I told myself this was the last straw.
I got back into the gym, got my school back on track, got my life together...and lived. And I made a promise to myself that I would wait. This time, I wasn't falling for the first girl that flirted with me. I knew that I deserved better. And I remember writing this. I remember laying in my bed, "talking to God," and I felt the need to write down everything I wanted. So this scratch piece of notebook paper was my prayer, pretty much. I said, "This is who and what I want. If it comes in a year or thirty years, this is what I am going to get. I am not falling anymore, unless I am falling because I am truly in love." I tucked the piece of paper away. And honestly, I forgot all about it.
On March 1st, 2006, I met "the one." The one that I knew was going to be my best friend and the love of my life. The one that means everything to me. Why I wake up, why I smile randomly everyday, why I have the daydreaming look on my face. The one. *sighs*
A few months later, I was cleaning my room and going through all of my drawers FILLED with stuff that I had written. And I found that sheet of paper. And I held it to my chest and cried. Everything that I had written was somehow compiled into this beautiful woman...and she was mine.
So, thanks God. You worked a lot faster than I thought. I was expecting a year at least, not three months! Thank you.
Baby, you are my everything. MY E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G. And I would GLADLY take five minutes out of my day, run to the store, and get you some cooking oil to make your "cuck-cakes."
Happy Valentine's Day, Sweetheart.
I love you.
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February 6th, 2007
05:13 pm - LJLJLJLJLJLJLJLJLJLJLJLJLJLJ
Well, I just wrote a LJ (LOL)
But LJ (LOLOL!)
Decided that it would be gay and not post it.
I'm gonna shave you head, LJ (*Laughs for real*)
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